Friday, March 4, 2011
I ate 6 chocolate chip cookies AND a peanut butter egg.
I yelled at my kids AND my husband for random things.
I had (and still am having) a few arguments with God about the fact that a recent convo included the phrase "it's not about you (meaning me)," in it.
I failed today when....
I listened to a worship song that had to do with the lost and unsaved and my heart was gripped and my emotions welled up because I am stuck in the country side quietly when most times I want to be somewhere in the nations.
Then I gave myself a good beating because I KNOW this is where I am supposed to be and many other days I am thoroughly thankful.
I failed today when...
I didn't believe my Z-man that he might really be sick to his stomach (because it was during chore time and he hates doing chores), so I handled it without any grace by making him take a shower and go to bed. I did pray with him and love him, but that was only after I got irritated. For the record, as far as I know, he's not sick, just over tired.
Oh, and when I stomped my foot and told my husband that I was tired of everyone in the house complaining about helping out around here and that they all got to do what they wanted today, why couldn't they just do what I wanted right now.... CLEAN THE HOUSE!
I just failed today...
I grumped out over issues in my head and projects that aren't being finished fast enough and never enough time or money to just get things done.
Yep, I failed.
Thankfully, He still loves me.